For many of us, though, this idea is just a myth. It’s one of the many things we tell ourselves to allow ourselves to keep using our drug of choice. It’s an excuse we make for continuing the same destructive patterns, because on some level we already know that this last time isn’t going to be the last. Sometimes we feel deeply and strongly that it will be the last time. We don’t feel like we’re lying to ourselves, but we are. Our addictions cause us to be impulsive, compulsive, obsessive and needy. We become desperate. We need our drug of choice to be happy, to survive, to cope. We can’t stomach the idea of letting go of it, so we give ourselves just one more time, to say goodbye, to wean ourselves off of it, to ease the transition rather than going cold turkey.
If we continue to use this idea of “just one last time,” there will continue to be one more last time, and another, and another. We have to put our foot down with ourselves, and say “no, that last time was the last time. I want to be happy. One more time is only going to cause me more suffering. It’s not worth it. I choose to let it go.”
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